..my -ris’k.y- world..*#,*

..i miss it..
..i miss it when you text me all day..
..i miss it when you text me even when am beside you..
..i miss it when you call me when am just a few feet away from you..
..i miss it when you wake me up in the middle of the night just to exchange text messages..
..i miss it when we use to exchange voice messages..
..i miss it when you call me to your place..
..i miss it when i always get lost just to be with you..
..i miss it when you drive me home..
..i miss it when you call me just to say thank you i attended one of your events..
..i miss it when you called..and i didn’t have to talk..i just have to listen to your voice…
..i miss staying at your place..
..i miss having mcdo for dinner with you..
..i miss it when you always buy a ‘cheese burger’ when you know i hate cheese so much..
*you’d scrape of the cheese out of the burger and have it for yourself*
..i miss exchanging french fries with you..
..i miss the way you munch on your food then suddenly kiss me..
..i miss it when we drink soda together..
..then we’d taste like the soda when we kiss..
..i miss the way you squeeze me..
..when you squeeze me real tight..
..i miss spending time with you..even if it’s just for a few minutes..
..i miss it when you beg for a voice message..
..i miss all the nights we shared..
..i miss sharing my pillow with you..
..i miss the way you squeeze me when i sleep..
..i miss it when you snore..
*it keeps me up all night*
..i miss staying in your arms,,
..i miss you..
..i miss everything about you..
..when i play with your hair..
..i miss you..
..i just miss you..
..the you..
..

.nothing hurts more than this…

..i found my happiness from within…

..yet..nothing’s changed..

..am scared to be someone ‘who i was’..
..i am who i was..
..i was someone without anything before i met him..
..i had no dreams..i had no goals..
..i only had fantasies..
..i never knew who i really was..or what’s in me..
..all i know..i breathe..without knowing the real purpose..

..he came and happened to me in a way i never thought it would..
..for years, i felt i am loved..and accepted by someone who wouldn’t question who i am..
..someone God used to be the medium to find my life..
..someone God used to form my dreams..
..i slowly found me..slowly finding the purpose of my life..

..but..being cultural..
..i had the attention i never deserved to have..
..i kissed those lips i shouldn’t have..
..i look into the eyes of a person who’s not mine..
..i lived by a lie..
..i was taken of by fantasy..
..i lived a dream am supposed to be leading..

..i was happy..
..i was overwhelmed..
..i had everything..
..i am not a failure..
..i have the man i’ve dreamt about..

..i can be who i am when i am with him..
..i had the whole world..
..i know i can have my dreams come true..

..one mistake..i made him my life..
..i turned away from Him who gave me him..
..i am supposed to live my life with him for Him..
..i didn’t..

..and now i am hurting..
..i am failing..

..i don’t know where to start..
..i want the dreams i want to work hard for..

..i really get used to being with him..
..i was told i could be confident enough am gonna have him in my life..

..i don’t know how to start over without out someone that makes me go on..
..that makes me hold on to my dreams..
..i don’t know who i am now without him..

..i don’t know how to start my life now that i don’t have the reason to live..
..i am left so broken..

..i don’t know who i am..
..i don’t wanna be who i was..

..starting over..left with nothing..
..might be the hardest thing to do..
..especially, you don’t know where to start, how to start..
..and who to start with…

..am a changed person..
..i am a better person..
..someone is the reason for my change..
..but what about now??
..how can i still be someone without the reason of being me..

..i am so lost..

..at some point….
..we are all liars…
..we lie mostly to ourselves…

..if  only i could lie to you…
..i would….
..but even though i know things would be so risky…..i just cant hide anything from you..

..am young..i know i shouldn’t be afraid…
..but i am..

..june 12….

..promises???thank you..

..thank you for coming..:):)
..thanks for that speech you had…:p
..kahit sobrang hmmmmp….i still listened somehow…:p
..and, i’ll try not to be too stubborn anymore..:p

..but..thanks really..even though *obviously* you forgot about my birthday…kung di pa ako nagfreak-out, i dunno if you’d remember…

..anyway…thank you talaga….for changing your mind to come??..hehe…just…thank you…

..thank you for giving me my first dance….i was really saving it for you..:):) i hope you’d like that…
..thank you for staying so long with me….no matter how stubborn i am….
..no matter how many times or how often i do freak out….still…..you’re there….
..you confront me with all my wrong doings but you’re still not leaving me…
..thank you so much for everything..
..thank you for being so patient with me…
..thank you for still enduring this with me…
..for that love we made….and everything that comes with it…

,,thank you so much for that first dance…
..though the setting wasnt so appropriate…the moment was something i would really cherish…
..thanks po for being there….and for the song as well….:):)
..thanks for the night….
..thanks for the moment…
..thanks for your short time..

..thanks to you po..:):)

ily…*#,*

..i have something genuine..
..i know it’s worth keeping..
..i wanna keep it no matter how hard it could be..
..i just don’t know how to quit..
..but things keep quitting on me..
..this time..i want it to stay..
..please…stay with me..
..and be with me..

..my first..
..my love..
..my passion..
..my interest..
..my inspiration..
..my weakness..
..my strength..
..my heart..
..my last..
..my everything..

..you made me go through all these..

..i want to go through all of it with you..

..til the very end..

…if you’re my superman…i want to be you’re kryptonite..

…one day..i woke up facing a beautiful day….
…feeling the warmth the sun is streaking in my skin…
…the radiance it brings in my eyes….
…kaso…..hmp!!!!
…maganda na sana lahat…nakakabadtrip ka nman….
…sana umulan nalang….
..gusto kita makasama!!!!